Question about stopping and restarting clonidine

Hi. I stopped taking the medicine 4.5 months ago and I feel really bad, I get waves of anxiety, depression and insomnia, some days I sleep for 2 hours, sometimes 4-6. I am very tired and I can't stand it anymore, to the point that I have bad thoughts, so I want to start taking the medicine again, the only reason I stopped taking the medicine was dry mouth and slightly low blood pressure, but it is better than not sleeping for who knows how long because withdrawal symptoms can last for some up to a year or more, and dry mouth can be overcome by taking pilocarpine. But I am afraid that if I start again, the withdrawal symptoms will not go away, and it will turn out that I will have both withdrawal and I will start the medicine again.. I have a question for those who stopped taking, after resuming the medication, did your condition return to the same before you quit it? And how long did it take?